Irritated!!!!!!!!!!!!

What is it about me that makes people think they can step on my toes and expect me to do nothing at all. I am sick and tired of such individuals who assume I am just another rug for them to rub off the mud. Who do they think they are?!

I may seem a little docile but I am not what I let people think I am. I get really angry with these individuals who make it a point to take advantage of 'weaker' people. They are low, if there is a word to describe them. They think that they are better than others when all they are is weak. Only weak people bully others and stiffarm them for their purposes.

Anyhow, they are nothing but little insects that have nothing but an overly low self esteem who draw value from instilling fear in others. Damn them!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! TO ALL OF YOU WHO DO THIS, YOU ARE PITIFUL, AT BEST. HOPELESS AT WORST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Why all the anger, you may ask? Well someone told me that I suppress alot of my emotions so I am letting loose right now so all those who think I am repressed had better think again.

On a lighter note. I don't hate you. So don't think my outburst is meant to frighten and distance me from others. I needed to do that. It's been too long holding in these things. I had to do it.

Well, till next time I remain forever yours truly...

Growing pains

Well, here I am again, whining about how life should be fair and all that crap. Most of the time people don't take us seriously because they feel we are young. What do we know anyway? A man is not a man until he has felt the touch of a woman. Crap. I have never heard a bigger load of crap than that. So what if haven't? Does it make make me any more of a man if I am a virgin? I believe that the measure of a man is in how he deals with the situations he is faced with daily, taking deliberate steps to making the lives of his fellow men better. If a man can't make the correct decisions then what good is he to the world? If he can't take responsibility for his actions or be accountable to others, then what is the point in him living.

Maybe a man needs a woman after all. Maybe her touch has the sort of effect that makes a man want to go out and do everything in his power to provide for her.

LOVE. What is it that makes a man go to the ends of the earth for a woman.

FEAR. The force that drives us deeper into ourselves.

FAITH. Without it there is really no reason for one to live because it inspires hope in us all.

Flowers in the rain

Here I am seated at my computer (I wish) looking all miserable and all. The rain has just stopped and I am sudddenly wishing it hadn't. Strange, huh? Maybe I like the rain and maybe I belong to a small clique of individuals who believe it is the best thing ever to happen to man. Then I think of flowers. Would they survive the onslaught of those heavenly drops on their fragile frames?

Why flowers, you ask? I have no idea. I might even make a dance out of it during my class today. I am instructing one so I needed a theme for the whole session. It is easier especially when you have to teach varied movement phrases. It also makes it easier for people to understand what sort of movement quality is required of them without a verbose explanation.

Enough already, I need to find a way to get them to create something along those lines. I will even call them, My Flowers In the Rain...

Another day, another life

OK, enough with the love vibes and all. Friday was been a day full of stress and good things. I had the craziest day of my life today. First of all, we couldn’t get on the stage for rehearsals because some guys had left behind the sets from a show that happened the day before. Did I mention that it was Valentine’s the day before? Stress!!! It was so bad that we finished doing our lights twenty minutes before our performance. We hadn’t gotten enough time and money to do proper costumes so we had to improvise. The costumes worked up until the moment when the suspenders fell apart. You should have been there to see the look on the face of yours truly. Anyhow, I goofed on quite a bit of the piece and that wasn’t even the half of it. The music went all haywire. Stress!!!!!!!!! The strange thing is that the audience loved it! Weird, huh? So much for being the first on stage. I must admit it was a lot, actually miles better than the original choreography. I was tons better than my first effort at the Danceweek last year.

Everyday I learn new things about who I am as an individual, performer, team member. There is so much more of who I am and the person God created and intended for me to be. My purpose is becoming clearer to me each day making it all the more easier for me to step into it. When I grow up, I want to be a… good father, husband, friend, brother, manager, performer, and all the things He has purposed for me to be.

I have tried my level best to invest in my talents and myself in as many people and avenues as possible with the hope that I can acquire more to make Him known to all. Above all, I want to know Him more so that I can be in a better position to share my experiences of the greatest friend and God of all.

Later,

Musings

Why is it that everytime we find ourselves in a situation that is too good to be true, we become skeptical? We deny what we feel in a hope that if indeed we block out these feelings we will get back to a sense of normalcy. How foolish we can be at times. To deny what we feel is to deny ourselves, to say that we are not what we think. Cogito, ergo sum! Another man, wrote, Je pense donc je suis! Unless we accept who we are, we are in danger of becoming our own enemies, adversaries of liars and foes to our true self. What then? Does this mean that we should succumb to feeble vibes or must we listen to the voice of reason as we do? Fear! A force so potent it cripples our thought processes and disrupts our creative self. DOUBT! To do so is to quesiton the things that we know, feel, think, love. To doubt is to forget that we have overcome before and have the potential to do it all over again. The only thing greater than fear and doubt- for doubt is borne of fear- is love, for perfect love drives out all fear. LOVE! Oh, how wonderful it is to love and even more wonderful, to be loved back. Love inspires faith, faith instills hope which is the foundation upon which dreams are built. LOVE! To be loved, to be loved, O what a feeling to be loved... Maybe I am in LOVE!!!!